Thursday, March 29, 2012

Our "check box" child

Our Adoption Education Seminar is Saturday! YAY!

The initial questionnaire really brought up some exciting questions and feelings. I find myself constantly wondering what our sweet baby will look like... will you be a he or she? Will you have lots of hair or no hair at all? Will you be big or small? Will you have light or dark skin? How will you prefer to be held?... WHEN will you be here?

As excited as I am to start our family, this questionnaire brought up some equally terrifying questions as well. As an adoptive family you are given a unique opportunity to some how "create" your child with a simple check of a box. Three categories 1) will accept 2) willing to discuss 3) cannot accept
-male or female
-african american
-biracial AA/C
-biracial H/AA
... and so on with ethnicity
-birthmother with mental illness
-history of mental illness in family
-extended stay in hospital/NICU
-substance abuse
-baby with known disability
-result of sexual abuse
...the list goes on..

This questionnaire broke my heart. I hate what SO many people go through and how many children end up in the foster system. While this list of yes and no's is intimidating, it's also encouraging - we are going to raise a child in a loving home that other wise would have a very different and possibly heart wrenching story. I am excited to meet our child and also know the Lord has a perfect plan.

From the sweet children's book:
I Wished For You
an adoption story
by: Marianne Richmond

Monday, March 19, 2012

Happy 28th Birthday Jake!!!

Happy birthday to my sweet husband. He is SO loving, caring, understanding, forgiving, strong, and funny!.. He's also a hard worker and the best provider. Thank you for leading me well and protecting me in this life!!

Happy Birthday Jakey!!!


After two years of feeling like the Lord told us to be still... Jake and I woke up the day after valentine's (we had a wonderful dinner with some amazing friends) to find ourselves BOTH having so much peace and excitement about adoption. Here's a little pic from v-day just for some visual excitement :)

pappas bros steakhouse!

so we called some agencies and set some interviews and....


We met with Hope Cottage of Dallas and are very excited. We feel a lot of peace about working with this agency. We are pretty full of unexpected emotions as we begin this process; it’s all extremely overwhelming. However, we are mostly encouraged, confident, and excited!
We are attending an Adoption Education Seminar Saturday, March 31st. The next step after the seminar is to complete a Home Study and a bunch of paper work. When all the i’s are dotted and t’s crossed we will officially be a waiting family!
We are SO thankful the Lord is encouraging us and allowing us to finally move in this direction. Yay! We are so confident and know the Lord has a perfect little Piatt baby coming our way.

Please pray for us as we embark this new phase of waiting!! 

a different plan

First comes love...

(our first date in florida- 2006)

Then comes marriage..

(may 26, 2007)

Then comes Joanna with the baby carriage.... 
                                                                                or not.

When I was a little girl, I dreamed of meeting a man like Jake. I prayed and hoped for someone to love and respect me the way he's done SO well for the past 5 years. I am so very thankful to be Mrs. Jacob Piatt. I also had this rhyme written on my heart. I truly desired nothing more in this world than to be a wife and a mother. So, we started trying about a year into marriage.. it was exciting at first. Waiting to see if it worked and honestly feeling a little like playing "house"! A year went by and nothing... friends and family advised seeing a doctor but we thought "hey, we're young, active, hot, in love,..etc.".. it'll happen. We heard crazy advice and tried to follow most- "relax"-"take a vacation"-"stand on your head"- "chart"-"eat these foods"... and the list goes ON! We finally felt led to at least start some testing and that's when I thought my world fell apart.

Without getting into the medical nonsense, turns out our odds of conceiving naturally were about -5%.. the doctor used the phrase "divine intervention".. Now, we believe that the Lord opens and closes the womb, so ALL life is divine intervention- but we knew that's not what the doctor meant. We then discussed procedures and options, and really there are no surgeries or medication to "fix" us, just medical procedures to assist us in conceiving. The next few months were really a blur, testing and more testing and finally a plan. The infertility specialists told us IVF was really the only option that gave us a drastic increase in percentage of having biological children. This is an invasive, extremely expensive procedure and we weren't too excited. He suggested that because we are young, we should start with something small and just hope it worked. So- plan B- 3 rounds of IUI followed by IVF if all else fails. We made it through two failed IUI's and realized the infertility treatments were not for us. It really stole the joy from our lives and I struggled very much during this time. I was depressed, angry, confused, and hormonal!! I understand people go through years and years of treatment and I am definitely NOT judging. I know the desperation of wanting to conceive; however, for us, in our marriage, we felt God had more in store for us than the misery of failed treatment. We wanted the doctor out of our bedroom! Stepping away from treatment was very difficult. I felt as though we were "giving up" on starting a family. As soon as we cancelled all the appointments-we felt free.

We discussed adoption for the first time when we stepped away from treatments but felt like we were some how deeming adoption as second place... which is definitely NOT the case. We've always felt it was a beautiful option and a true picture of the way Christ loves us. Having said that, we just didn't feel at this time (2 years ago) we had grieved the loss of the little child that would look like us.. or had grieved the "normalcy" of creating a little Piatt family. We were very hurt and confused at this new phase of "waiting"..I was fearful to start the adoption process because I thought I would get consumed in the process and too hurt if we got paired and the birthmother changed her mind. 

so we waited...

During this time I was heavily convicted that my desire to be a mother had overshadowed my role as a wife and as a believer. I realized I needed to truly give our family to God and THANK Him for the role He blessed me with. I was missing the point of my life. My life and purpose is to bring glory to God.. if I'm wallowing in self-pity, how can I be a light to those around me?? Where was my faith?

I can truly say the Lord worked in my heart and made the sting of infertility bearable. Of course that sting is still there, and will probably always be there... But, I began to find meaningful joy in my life and in my husband. Jake is a great man, and HE is my family. Through this time of waiting and whatever life brings down the road Jake is more than enough...

My God, my Father, my creator knew me before I was born and these desires are of Him and from Him. I trust Him completely..

First post

I am not really a "blogger". So this is probably won't be a "must read". I'm going to treat this as sort of an update on life!

I've noticed how difficult it is to keep up with people without being on social networks. I am not a fan of facebook, I tried twitter for a week- pinterest lasted a month (maybe)... I just get so sucked in to the addiction of social networking. I spent WAY too much time on facebook, I felt entitled to send out my personal thoughts on twitter, and I fed my idolatry with pinterest-- well NO more! I'm a firm believer in personal relationships. I want my friends to call or send a text asking me to meet up. I want face to face contact with those in my life. This blog is for those who live too far away for that kind of a relationship or people who are around here but may not have the same schedule as the crazy Piatt's :)

I love you all and want to share this journey with you. I don't want to send out mass emails and then panic about who I'm leaving out!!