According to Hebrews 11:1 "Faith is the confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see." I've grown up in the church and was definitely coached to have faith, but I must say it's only recently I've learned what I really think about faith. Despite my best efforts, I am constantly doubting and allowing fears to grab hold of my heart, I hate this about myself. I was extremely emotional today about meeting Miss K, for multiple reasons, but it really boiled down to fear. Fear of the unknown, fear of her response, fear of my response, future fear of Carson's response to her... and so on....
During my wonderfully timed Beth Moore study (living beyond yourself), this week was discussing faithfulness. What I love about this week is the focus was God's faithfulness, not mine. One thing I do have faith in is God's faithfulness. My faith is like shifting sand and is easily wavered- His is not. I oftentimes associate my faith in what God does, not who He is. He is the same yesterday, today, and forever (Heb. 13:8) and although our lives are prone to change, and our circumstances change, He remains the same- He is faithful. Beth Moore says "If your faith is based on what God is doing, you are in for the scariest ride of your life." I will mirror that and say if my well-being is based on my faith and not His faithfulness, then I'm a total mess. My reality is- I do believe in God's sovereignty, I just don't always believe He goes about achieving His plan in the most "effecient" way and feel I should help Him. So my prayer today is that He grows my faith, continues to speak truth into my life, helps my unbelief, and protects me from fear. "When great fear exists no faith can survive."-Beth Moore
Jesus, faithful king,
Lord, with grateful hearts we sing
how great is the love
how great is the love of our Savior.
How Great is The Love